carry it around

In life we get our heart broken all the time. But most of the time it can be put back together . But in rare cases it can be difficult for the bandage to stick. Then you end up like me...walking around with a broken heart. And it sucks, and i know most are going to say oh boo hoo your just a kid its probably over some guy, it kind of it but its also over something so much bigger then him.

As of right now...

I really feel like in stuck in a revolving door. I mean everything it good and wonderful one minute and then the next something bad happens. I've heard that this is normal, Like you cant have a perfect life but it also cant be completely terrible either. Life just has a way of balancing out. You will have finally made it to the top and then BAM your pushed half way back.

Right now i think I'm in the middle of being pushed back to midway and it really sucks...because things were just getting really good and i was really happy...not so much anymore.

16.

OHHH AND APRIL 16TH IS MY BIRTHDAY!  I'll be 16 and I'll probably wish for the one thing i do every year...

But...im only human

"Human"

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human


But I'm only human

                 

 

Behind

People who talk behind other peoples backs make me so mad!!!! I mean really you are that cowardly that you cant even say it to their face. You cant look them in the eye and say whats on your mind. It also goes for posting stuff online. Just go say it to their face. If your going to say something at least let them hear it. Its also wrong because they aren't around to defend themselves.

Be with the enemy?

So as you may know last year i was picked on really bad by this guy. Will yesterday he told me he liked me. He went thats why i was so mean to you. And i hope you wont tell anyone.

Well...i got really mad at him and said "Do you now how much you hurt me? Do you know i woke up everyday for a year praying to god i wouldnt have to see you? Do you know how much you made me feel like i was nothing? Like i was worthless, and better off dead! And now you tell me it was all because you liked me?? No. We are not happening, we will not be anything...EVER! Oh and i guess your so ashamed of it that you dont want anyone to know? HA no."

So....yeah....maybe i could have handled that a little better but he just made me so mad!! I mean really, If you like someone you dont treat them like dirt.

I mean its okay to pick at them but not to be that rude and mean!!

Plus: ....i like someone else :)