"She looks so perfect"

Because all I really want is you...

Someone

Sometimes all you really need is someone. Just one human being that understands. Someone that listens. Someone that cares.

It can be a boyfriend a girlfriend just a friend a mom a dad a sibling, ANYONE, you just need...someone.

to this

"It's going to be so hard.
Saying goodbye

to the sun
to the moon
and the stars

to the places
 i have been
to the places
i will never go

to the people
i have met
to the people
who's faces
i shale never see

to late nights
and early mornings
to Saturdays
and Sundays

to long talks
on the phone
at midnight

to all the things
moments
little pieces of life
where i was happy

But
it will be easy
to kiss goodbye
all the bad things

 to the sadness
that filled me
everyday

to the grief
that ate away
at every part of me

to the bad things i did
to the people that hurt me
to the people i hurt

to all the bad things
to every bad thing
that drove me

to pure insanity
to pure dread
to...this"


To this- ellie

Remember Cheyenne

I want to be known.
But not as the loser
but not as the weirdo
but not as the nobody

I want to be known
for who I am
for what i create
for how much i care

I want to be known
for the things
that make me
that make me unique

I want to be remembered
not as i was
sad
misunderstood
misused

I want to be remembered
as I should have been
Happy
loved
appreciated

I want to be known
I want to be remembered
as me

The me with flowers
wrapped him her hair
The me with a smile
that lights the room

Remember me
how you wish
just so long
as its not like this.

This is a poem wrote by a very amazing girl named Cheyenne. It was wrote in the last few hours of her life.

get away

I'm I the only one that sometimes just needs a break. And escape from everything. Kind of like a vacation. I dont know i guess its because sometimes i get this feeling of being unwanted and unneeded. No in a bad way well sometimes but most of the time its more like i feel like if i were to just disappear for a bit everyone i care about would be okay until i got back. Like I'm not a really big part of their lives.

Its these times when i feel like this that i wish i could drive. I would just go places with no plan or anything. Find new things, see new  stuff that inspires me but mostly get away and just be...on my own.

I just need an escape , a change of scene, something anything I'm just tired of looking at the same things

So this morning....

So this morning i was in my science class and in there there is this kid. He's kind of short and fat and does not look old enough to be in high school. Today people were being so mean to him. Throwing stuff at him, calling him names, etc. The whole time i just kept telling him to ignore them and they were immature and stupid. But then i realized that he shouldn't have to ignore it, because it shouldn't happen. I mean seriously! We are young adults, We shouldn't be treating each other this way!

Now i wish i had of said something. Stood up for him. Told those people how immature and ignorant they are. To treat someone, another human being like that, you have some serious problems.

Picture- GIF from Jake miller "A Million Lives" Music video

sad, sweet poetry

"They asked me to describe sadness in three words.
I could say empty,
desolate,
unloved,
and no matter how true they were,
I didn't say them.
"He forgot me, They forgot me"
(And i think i did too)"

I was on tumblr last night and saw this. A girl posted a bunch of her sisters poems and stories after she died last year. According to her this one is kind of telling how her sister started to developed depression. Kind of telling why and who caused it. She didn't tell the whole story and that's okay its Private but i just thought this poem was very beautiful.

beautiful

So i have come to a conclusion Everything and i mean everything has beauty. Every person, every animal, Everything. Its just that some people are visually challenged. so say you are a girl that has very low self esteem and an idiot guy tells you your ugly. Hes not even close to right he's just too dim to see how much you shine. And as for you already thinking you are less well my dear, you are a butterfly. You are just so amazing and beautiful but cant see it just like how butterflies cant see their wings.
You just don't know and neither do they. And thats okay. It's okay to be a butterfly some times.